Saturday, February 1, 2014

Reflections: 2013 – Part 6

Looking Ahead …

It’s hard to believe how the past few years have changed everything and the landscape of my life. It’s hard to look back where I was in 2008 (when I moved to my current address), 2009, 2010, 2011, 2012 and even 2013 to now (despite it being the beginning of the second month of the year).

There’ve been so many changes I don’t know where to begin to try recalling all of them.

To give you a sense of how things have changed ...

2008 to 2009 changed so dramatically at times I didn't know if I was coming or going. I had a what I thought was a good friend, lost that friend, re-connected with another. Had one car nearly paid off, got another car.

2009 to 2010 ... we had two cars, I had a job, got injured, left my job to recover from injury, started writing again, discovered a few new things.

2010 to 2011 ... I went into therapy for the injury, kept writing, started wondering what I was going to do in life.

2011 to 2012 ... I got to drive on the speedway for charity; I started college, re-connected with my family, lost a family member, took a trip to California, reconnected with my past, and did NaNoWriMo for the first time with a story inspired by the events 

2012 to 2013 ... stayed in college, took another road trip to California, made peace with my past, started a business, left college, did my second NaNoWriMo

2013 to now … Started discovering new places/things, started a healthier routine of eating and walking, did two virtual 5K charity walks, did the inaugural 5k/1m run/walk (PJ run at LVMS), did my third NaNoWriMo, ended NaNo with triple word count

First "swag" bag for the Virtual Lemon Run benefiting Alex's Lemonade Stand

My second "swag" bag for another virtual Lemon Run
Shirt and race bib for the Inaugural PJ 5K/1M Walk/Run at Las Vegas Motor Speedway
PJ 5K/1M and Lemon Run Race Bibs – two really great causes :)

I can't wait to see what 2014 brings my way. Everyday I learn something new, I nurture my talent, I find new things to feel blessed/grateful for ... and I try to be more positive and less negative.

I honestly want to work on my photo projects a lot more than I have been, I also would love to finish one story (not the 2013 NaNo one of course, but another one) and perhaps publish it. It'll take a lot of hard work, and it'll take quite a bit of dedication to get it done.

I'd love to grow my business, and that's why I share things with people. I want them to find the same joy and passion I have for preserving memories, making new ones, and being a part of history.

Maybe this year will be it for Heritage Makers. If you want to see what we have to offer, please ... check out my website: http://www.heritagemakers.com/me429 you can follow me on Twitter as well:

(Personal) https://www.twitter.com/MarieEdwards429
(Business) https://www.twitter.com/MarieEdwardsHM

Most of all ... I am enjoying the life I have right now. Of course I want to do more in my life (and with it, like having children), but I have to take it as things come. I can't rush it ... if it's meant to be ... it'll find a way. My mom, a mentor, and God has taught me that.

Sometimes our prayers are answered. It might not be the exact package, but it's the one that we need at the time we need it.

Oh remember this car?

Starsky's Ford Gran Torino (aka: Striped Tomato)

I've wanted one ever since I was little ... can't afford the gas, insurance, maintenance for it ... I don't have room for it ... so I got the one God sent me.

For those who don't believe in God, then don't read my blogs or comment. What's right for one, is right for them ... it isn't right for someone else. I've learned that as well.

I'm excited to see the new things in this year.

Welcome to 2014 (even if I am a month late) ...

Reflections: 2013 – Part 5

PROJECT: 365

In addition to taking a picture every day, which I am entering my sixth (6th) year of, I’ve also begun a daily “what I am thankful for or blessed with” moment. I’m using a small “desk” calendar to write them down. At the end of the month, I’ll tear off the month, and put in a jar for 2014. At the end of the year, I will take them out, maybe paste them in a book with some pictures.

Getting back to “Project: 365” …

For the last few years I’ve been updating photos to:

** Google + (G+)
** 365 ORG (website)
** Facebook
** Twitter

While I’ve enjoyed sharing my life and experiences over the four websites, I came to a decision that it was too time consuming to continue sharing over networks that either had no interaction or limited interaction. As a result, I discontinued posting to the 365 website and G+ as of this year. I will keep the 365 account though.

As far as G+, the majority of my “friends” were either on Twitter and Facebook, or either one. Since there had been no interaction among active users, I discontinued. It has cut down how much time I spend uploading photos.

I’m still going to the Bellagio Conservatory, as well as other places. Earlier this month, my mom and I went to the Shark Reef at Mandalay Bay. It helped that we had free passes thanks to myVegas Rewards (Facebook/mobile game).

Bellagio Conservatory – Year of the Horse


Fish Tank at Mandalay Bay – Shark Reef Aquarium 



Sharks swimming over the "tunnel"


In the past month that I’ve cut out the other two networks or websites … I’ve gained quite a bit of time back in my life. I also look at it this way – if no one is interacting, why I am doing it?

I'm proud to still be doing this after all this time. I honestly didn't think it would be easy, at times it hasn't been, but as time goes on, I'm finding there is something new or interesting about every day.


Reflections: 2013 – Part 4

Family & Friends

It was in 2011 that I reconnected with quite a few members of my family, and it was over a tragedy. Still, I think it helped me grow at a time I felt conflicted in my life.

I feel so blessed in having a close, albeit distant (in location) relationship with my family. Got to talk to some cousins online, and on the phone over the holidays, so I feel very loved and blessed to connect with them again and talk. I missed so much of their lives, and they missed so much of mine. I try to post (on Facebook) as much as I can photo and status wise – still, it’s the lost time that hurts the most. 

All I can do is go forward and appreciate the time we do have.

I’ve also made some new friends in real life, on Twitter, and Facebook in that time. I am so thankful that people find me that interesting to follow and want to share bits and pieces of my life with.

Some friendships ended without so much as a word or warning. Although I’m sure it's for the best and there is obviously a reason for it, I wish that they would have told me why before they just ended the friendship. I would have liked their side of the story and at least have a chance to say “goodbye, and I wish you well” or try to figure it out. I realize we might not always have identical views on issues, but that variety and those counter-points are essential to learning and growing. Perhaps some people haven't reached the same point in life that I have or they don't want to. 

But, as with every loss there is a gain … and in every gain there is a loss. I am sure what I have to gain is certainly worth the loss. At the time, it never seems like it is … but, it is. I’ve learned that through someone I admire. The things that happen to us in our lives – good or bad, are part of our life's journey. Friends are sometimes seasonal, be it a good season or a bad one. They're there for the time they are, and then they're gone. 

I’ve also noticed that there is a distance between some friends and myself, certainly not on my part. While I was a bit heart-broken in the beginning, I have found the distance has helped me gain some perspective into my life. Its helped me discover who I am, where I have been, where I am going, and who I am becoming. Again, the whole loss/gain perspective.

As a result, I’ve had the opportunity to try and do new things on my own. It’s been an incredible discovery, to be honest.

Hidden Falls Park; Henderson, NV 

I’m looking forward to the new chapters/phases of my life. I am looking forward to writing new stories on this new canvas, and as always, the journey in getting there. 

Sometimes we may never get there, but the journey is the best part as I am beginning to discover.


Reflections: 2013 – Part 3

Writing & NaNoWriMo …

I have to say this was a “banner” year for my writing. I couldn’t have hoped for better. I couldn’t have anticipated this “growth” either. 

I had a few new ideas that didn’t quite get “outlined” the way I wanted them, but at least I have the ideas down. I even have two new ones that I began 2014 with. 

As many of you know, in 2011 I took part in my first EVER NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). The goal? 50,000 word in 30 days. That first year, I barely made it under the wire (50K on the 30th).  Yes, I was in school, but I believe there were a lot of things that could have perhaps made it better or at least helped me be more productive.

In 2012, I managed 50,200+ words with three to four days remaining. Not bad, but I knew … I just knew I was capable of more, or at best, better performance.

Enter 2013!

Yeah, I’m still tooting my horn :) I know, I should get out of the “gloating” phase. It’s been over a month, but I find the accomplishment so … stunning. I knew I was capable of doing better, I just didn’t know how well I could do.

152,521 words! That’s for those who might have missed it.

NaNoWriMo stats, November 2013
(link: http://nanowrimo.org/participants/medwards429/novels/love-honor-serve-protect/stats)
That’s a triple (and then some) NaNoWriMo! That makes up for 2011 and 2012. I reached the 50K goal November 10th, and eight days later (November 18th), I reached 100K. I’ll admit that reaching the 150K+ mark took a bit longer (had 148K on the 29th). But, it was worth it. 

That’s the kind of progress I want to see and do, and it's what makes it SO worthwhile. It's a challenge. Some you win, some you lose. 

I really credit all those hours at Starbucks and the music playlist I made while outlining the story. The playlist has grown and changed, but most of it has remained the same.

Of course the Starbucks visit are fewer and fewer between. I’m hoping that this year I will be able to get back there (and I might be making one real soon) ... even if it is once a week (though twice is nice and “preferred”). I never thought I could write in public, but that was what helped me progress as much as I did. On those days I could easily average 5000 or more.

But, I also need a better laptop as well. My current laptop is approaching four years old. After being dropped, tossed in a backpack countless times, buttons replaced, cooling fan replaced, and the DVD “drawer” door falling off … I think it’s time to retire it. 

For those of you who may not know this – it also went through 18 months of college work and papers. So, I think it served me quite well. I might keep it as a back-up until I can fix the “back-up”.

As for the back-up to the current laptop, I had a BEAUTIFUL purple HP – the screen needs to be repaired. It was “cracked” and although it still works, I’d like to repair it. There is only so much money in the household though. 

Anyway … back to “NaNoWriMo” (sorry about that deviation) …

Unlike most people after NaNoWriMo, I didn’t walk away from the story after the event was over. Not even for a breather as they recommend. 

Why? The story was far from being “done”. It wasn’t even halfway. In many ways, I think it was just starting. So, I kept going.

I also have to admit, I was in love with my characters. Well, one of them at least :) So, it wasn’t a chore to tell their story. I found that I couldn’t wait to get up in the morning, turn the computer on, and see what they were up to.

There were times I’d only manage a few notes here or there, or even 100 words … the point was – I kept going. I didn’t stop. I was disappointed with some of the days, but I kept writing.

And, yes, I am still writing EVERY single day. Even if it’s not on the computer, I’ll make notes or plot out “scenes” for my stories, whichever one comes to me when it comes to me. I can’t always plan which story, that’s not how my brain or the creative muses work. The NaNoWriMo one is taking precedence though :)

As much as I would LOVE to publish it, it’s mainly going to be for me. It’s a therapeutic/cathartic story I started back in 2000/2001. At the time I was going through some changes and adjustments, more so after 2/18/2001 and 9/11.

I connect with TV shows that have a meaning in my life or time. Often, they inspire me to write about it, or something entirely different. I can’t control where the “plot bunnies” take me. 
There was an “old” TV series being shown in syndication at the time (2000/2001)I re-connected with it, and thus some of the 2013 NaNoWriMo story started there.

Back then it was in bits and pieces, as if a puzzle. I shredded the remnants in early 2013. 

I know, as a writer, that is a HUGE no-no. Trust me when I say that it was for the better. There was no beginning, no connections, no end, and no outline. There was nothing bit disjointed bits and pieces. It was in some respects quite useless.

But, it eventually, everything came back around and back together. And, I re-discovered, re-connected, and re-introduced myself to that same series once again. This time, I started to shape the frame, add in the bits and pieces that were needed to build on it, then the discarded/shredded parts came back, along with a great ending that was planned out.

It’s as my mother always told me “if it’s mean to be … it will happen”.  I’ve lived my life with that. Be it faith or be it karma, I figure if something is meant to happen it will. Or, if we’re meant to have something … we will.

But, another reason I won’t publish it … I don’t own the copyright to the characters or the series. I feel the reason I had to write this story was not only to complete something, but to remember what it was that shaped the interests I developed, and who I became. It’s a loving “thank-you” to the characters and perhaps the actors. Please don't ask me to discuss which series it is based on (or about) though, or what the story is about. 

I will state that the theme is about saving people. It's about loving them not just during the good times, but in the absolute WORST of times. Letting go of the inner demons that try to keep us from what we deserve, and … learning that love changes with the seasons and tides of our lives. In the end, true love prevails despite all adversity. Sappy and soapy ... I know. But, the them is saving each other through love, patience, kindness, and strength.

I am also, as time and plot bunnies allow, working on other projects – outlining, planning, making notes and doing research. It’s amazing how much time it all takes. On December 30th, I spent over 10 hours just writing (maybe taking 1-2 hours of that for eating and social media, if that). 

That’s another thing I learned this year – writing is VERY time consuming. And, you have to have support from your family (as well as friends). That’s why I “plan” my days/weeks in advance – so I can get done what needs to be done.

As far as CampNaNo for 2014? I’m thinking up something, doubt I’ll EVER repeat the historic success of NaNoWriMo – 2013 again, either during Camp or November’s NaNoWriMo. I’m not a defeatist, just a realist.

But, I know what I am capable of, so I'll give it a shot :)


POST NaNoWriMo Life …

So, how is the novel doing?

Because of certain things that happened in December, I wasn’t always able to continue from where I left off on story, or let's just say ... in the order it should be in the story.

Mostly, I would write “scenes” as I was inspired (or when plot bunnies attacked). Some of those notes, which were for later chapters, I typed up in a separate document to copy and paste when I get there. That is where I did the bulk of the Post-NaNo writing.

The story is still being continued though. I managed to add an additional 23,382 words to it (that’s as of right now). That's an average of 390 words per day (63 days).

The handwritten notes (for future chapters) totaled over 50K words.

POST-NaNoWriMo, I added a TOTAL of  words to a story that even if I added that in … it still wouldn’t be “half-way”.  Adding up ALL the work I’ve done:

NaNoWriMo – 152,521
Post-NaNo – 56,525 (average of 897 words per day)

That brings us to … 209, 046 for the story so far. 

Now, here is the kicker … I did do some “pre-writing” in October to get my bearings, and to “flesh it out”. Most of that is for future chapters as well, and that was 54,118 words.

Total words for October, November, December and January? That's around 263,164 (give or take a few, depending on how you count them).

I have a feeling this is going to be a whopper of a story before it’s done. My mom has referred to it as either “War and Peace” of a police story or a “Gone With the Wind” police story

Then again, a 15-year story often is a “saga” – you can’t just jump from then (whenever then is) to now (the now in your story) without  telling how the characters met, expand on their lives, include some intrigue/upset/heartbreak/catch the bad guys, and wrap it up believably. It's not going to be just 50,000 words or 300 pages. 

The goal, when finished ... is to design some artwork for a cover, proofread for errors, edit, revise, and save it as a PDF so I can read it through the NOOK or KINDLE APP on my iPad. 

Then ... to move on to another story. Then again ... I could always do some “shorts” (short-stories). Again, I can't control those plot bunnies :)

Reflections: 2013 – Part 2

Christmas 2013


Back-tracking to Christmas … yes, it was wonderful. There were a few things I didn’t get that I had wanted, but they paled in comparison to what I did get.

Our Christmas Tree and gifts

I got a lot of things that reminded me where I came from, where I’d been, and even where I’m going. I got things I needed as well (PJs, jeans, clothes). I also got things that fostered my creativity. 

Symbol of my faith, and a story about life and sacrifices

Very special Beanie Baby & Buddy – Ariel 

Starsky & Hutch Torino (series version) :) (series was my first introduction to "cops")

A few sweet treats, and a new set of "Rory’s Story Cubes" – Mix Set (Historia, Clues, Enchanted)

It was a great Christmas, definitely a time to reflect and be grateful.

In some ways, I’ve grown so much spiritually and emotionally this year, so much so that I hardly recognize the Marie that began 2013 … yet, I feel like there is more to do, more yet to accomplish, more changes that need to take place. Isn’t that the way it is? It keeps us focused, balanced, and open to learning and doing new things.


I have to admit, the holiday season taught me so much. For that, I am truly grateful. 

Reflections: 2013 – Part 1

Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014 … (ok, some I’m about a month late here) …

If you’re wondering why this is under “Snapshots and Project 365” … it’s because of the project’s theme to take a picture every day of every year so we can look back and see where we began and how we ended the year. 

And, as we say (or said) goodbye to one year, we say hello to another. Another year in which to change, grow, and develop ourselves.

Which brings me to the fact that I can’t believe we’ve already said goodbye to 2013.  It’s been a WHOLE MONTH and I still can’t believe we’re in 2014. It doesn't seem like we should be where we are already. At least thats how I feel.

In many ways, it seems like just yesterday I was saying “hello” to 2013. In many ways it seems like it has been a whole year (even longer). It’s a feeling I can’t explain because in some ways – I don’t even understand it, but I like it. 

I’m not the only one. One of my Facebook friends said they felt like it was a slow/fast-forward mix. I too feel the same way. I’m wondering where 2013 went. It’s been a month, and I’m still looking for it. It was like it was just here – then gone. Thank goodness for my photo project, I think I’d be lost without it, which is the whole point of it.

Whether the year flew by or was slow, I think it depends on the path we’ve all taken, the goals we set for ourselves (whether we’ve achieved them, didn’t, or are still in the process of), and what we’ve experienced (good or bad).

2013 was an interesting, yet amazing year for me. While I might not have succeeded based on others expectations, I have done far more than I thought possible. I’ve grown spiritually, personally, and even creatively.

One thing that hasn’t changes is that I’m still WAY behind on designing my Project: 365 photo books, and that is a goal for 2014 – finish 2010, maybe start & finish 2011(though that will be quite a feat) … I won’t get my hopes up for 2012 or 2013 yet.

Still …there is so much to cover. This is just part one in a series of “Reflections: 2013”.


Bellagio Conservatory (Las Vegas, NV)  – Chinese New Year (Year of the Horse)